Monday, December 24, 2012

looking back: the first semester

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"and this is how change happens. one gesture. one person. one moment at a time."  | Libba Bray |

I'm finding it hard to put my thoughts on my first semester of college into words. So much happened in past four months. So many things that I'm finding hard to even comprehend myself. I look back on the past four months and see everything differently. I think back on who I was that first week in August. Scared, unsure, trying to get used to a new place and knowing no one. Then I think about who I am now. An entire semester under my belt, comfortable with how many things work on campus, and a group of wonderful friends. It's hard to believe that only four months ago I was feeling so unsure about college. Questioning my decision to go to Oklahoma Christian and not sure if I was ever going to fit in at college.

But the thing I learned is that it's not about "fitting in" it's about being yourself and not worrying about what other people think about you. Once I realized this about a month in, college started to become one of the best experiences. I tried new things I'd never thought I'd do. Participating in Freshmen Fanfare and being selected for the music department recital were at the very top of my "things I will never do" list. But I did those things. I jumped in and step out of my comfort zone. Yes, I was scared out of my mind whenever I did anything new, but every time it ended up being something I'll never forget.

I never questioned my decision to be a music major. I've never second guessed. I enjoy being a music major more than anything. The people I've met, the performance I've done and the things I've learned have reenforced my major choice. And I am so excited to continue on and learn even more.

To recap everything I did the past four months would be extremely hard. I could tell you about the christmas event "lighting of the commons" or about finals week and how it was the longest week of my life. But all I will say is that going to college has been one of the best things I've ever done. Even though the eleven hour drive is terrible and I miss my friends and family in my home state, I've already learned and experienced so many things. I've learned things about myself, music, people and life. It's been fantastic so far, and I'm excited to see what will happen in the next four years. So here's to many more semesters to come and many more adventures ahead.

-m

2 comments:

  1. That is awesome! I will be a college freshman next fall and I hope my experience will be as positive as yours.:) I love that quote!

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  2. wow wow wow. your story is beautiful and so encouraging. God has big things for you! :)

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